so i just recently found out that my wealthy aunt lives in new york and wants me to visit her in the summer. she legit lives in manhattan on that really rich and famous street. idk the name of it but i know that it’s really fancy and oh my god i’m going to dabble in living the dream for a week. how amazing is that? new york!!! manhattan!!! ahhhh!!! i cant wait to be walking in times square and be hidden in a crowd of locals and tourists. i’ll be surrounded in a mass of flashing signs and billboards all advertising events and other places. i’ll wander around bougie shops. i won’t be able to afford anything, of course. but i’ll just be there. i’ll be there in the moment. maybe i’ll walk into a theatre and watch a play. just seeing the talent up on stage, sitting in the middle of an auditorium filled with other play-watchers. i’ll dream that one day, i could be up there. later i could walk into a coffee shop. i’ll order a five dollar coffee and savor every sip. i mean it’s a once in a life time experience. sitting in an armchair in the cafe, i’ll look out the window and think to myself, “i’m actually here. i’m in the midst of it all. i’m in new york.” then a dark sky full of stars will blanket the atmosphere. i’ll be standing on a terrace covered in plants like english ivy and aloe vera. i’ll place my hands on the edge of the railing and look up at the sky and my eyes will flutter down over to the city lights. just breathing in the cold night air, feeling it in my nose through every breath. with a warm smile, i’ll slide open the glass sliding door and walk down the hall barefoot into the guest room. i’ll climb into bed. i’ll turn my head and glance out the window once more. i’ll turn on my side and close my eyes. and my final thought for the day will be that i am in the midst of it all. i am in new york.

2018 was overall a great year. while it did have ups and downs, i came to the realization of many things. i’m writing this bc maybe i can save a sis the lesson of learning this stuff. 💘💖🤩

1. highschool is what you make it. think about it. if you choose not to join any clubs, don’t keep up with grades, and decide not to put yourself out there, highschool will SUCK. now don’t get me wrong, highschool can still have its downs if you do these things, but along will come the ups. the ups totally make highschool worth it. my freshman year i joined three clubs, two of which i was elected to be officers of by the end of the year. so put yourself out there!!! it’s okay if you’re nervous or you know you look awkward. you’re gonna get through it eventually so might as well do it earlier.
2. every boy will eventually disappoint you PERIOD.🙌homegirl right here started going through her boy crazy phase this year. no matter how perfect this boy seems, he. will. disappoint. you. i wish i could prove this with like facts or statistics or something but no, honey, this is just a given. now i’m not saying you can’t have fun just bc every boy is stupid. i dated a guy for three months and i met so many new people, went to a bunch of cool places, and learned so much bc of it. in fact, a good portion of that relationship is one of the highlights of this year. so go out and have fun!! just realize that this relationship is in the moment and that you shouldn’t think too far ahead.
3. drama is a big no no. i’ve never been the type of person to get involved in drama, however i was thrown into it a bit this year because of a toxic friendship i was in. just know that most of the time, people aren’t maliciously cruel. they’re just damaged. it really isn’t their fault. now that doesn’t make what their doing is right, but we can at least understand what makes them do the things they do. if everyone just understood eachother and would forgive, highschool would hold a hell of a lot less drama.
4. compliment other girls as much as you possibly can. my reasoning? 1. great way to make friends 2. it trains you to see the good in people and 3. it just brings positivity into everyone’s lives. don’t you love giving compliments? be that cute, nice girl who compliments everyone because everyone loves that girl.😁🤩
5. you don’t need anyone to be happy. BIG ONE. we are independent. young. women. and we don’t need nobody. you don’t NEED a shoulder to cry on. you don’t NEED a boyfriend. you don’t NEED to constantly be around people. you don’t NEED people if you’re bored. if you have the mental strength and the intelligence, you literally can do so many things by yourself. now i fully realize that there are lines that can be crossed where it’s best for your safety or emotional health to have someone with you. this is just something that i learned for my own self and i hope that other girls who have the ability to, can learn this as well.

written by your favorite trainwreck (okay but this is advice from my non-trainwreck side so we’re all good)

this is just some advice that has really helped me in the past (and currently) so i fully realize if this advice may not be helpful to everyone. tell me what you think in the comments!!💕

here we go:

1. just bc people aren’t inviting you out places does not mean something is wrong with you or that people don’t like you.
2. if you’re feeling insecure, spend a day without looking at social media. social media is toxic if you let it get to you.
3. never stop setting goals. setting goals makes you determined and determination makes you confident and confidence makes you a bad bitch and being a bad bitch is totally 100% bad ass.
4. always make time for a relaxing bath. you will be so glad that you did, but don’t do it too often!! or it won’t feel as special.
5. give at least one compliment a day. kindness goes a long way. 90% of those people you compliment may feel pleased in that moment and forget about it but 10% will remember that compliment and it’ll be so special to them.
6. don’t take right now for granted. you’re young. RIGHT NOW is the time to experience life!! so don’t always stay indoors (no matter how lazy you feel). go outside while you can still run. hang out with your friends if you’re feeling lonely. don’t wallow in self pity bc, ladies, we don’t have time for that. talk and flirt your heart out if that’s what you want. turn the music up a little louder and stay out a little longer.
7. say yes. say yes because yes opens up possibilities for opportunities. don’t say no to something like hanging out unless you KNOW it isn’t good for you.
8. remain thankful. it’s easy to forget how lucky you are as a teen. i constantly compare myself to more popular, richer girls. always remember to be thankful for what you had bc trust me, it could be worse.

brace for impact, ladies. you’re in for a wild ride.

WARNING: this blog is written by a hot mess of teen.🤪🤩

Hey there all you goobers! I’m too scared to make a youtube channel so my second plan was to revert to writing so here we are. My main reason for starting a blog is that I woke up this morning bored and unmotivated so I thought let’s claim a corner of the internet with a blog owned by yours truly. Truth is, I don’t know where I’m going with this blog almost like how I don’t know where I’m going with a lot of things (ooh tea). What can I say? I’m a confused teenage girl. My hopes are that this can become a hobby and that I’ll continue writing whether anyone reads this or not.

Some basic info about myself:

1.I’m a teenager in highschool

3. I don’t know how to like make a blog? All of this editing stuff is confusing me so I apologize if the layout isn’t the best but hey, I’m learning.

2. I’m an honors student

3. I love fashion (woo i sound shallow)

4. I’m an officer in my school’s debate club

5. All of these facts start with “I” or “I’m” and I feel really self absorbed right now but also what’s more self absorbed than a personal blog? Guilty as charged.

6. I’m probably not going to tell anyone I know about this blog

7. Passions include filmaking, acting complaining to my mom that there’s nothing to eat, claiming to be a positive person and then go bask in self pity, buying clothes online and instantly regretting it, writing, and photography.

Welp!! I guess this is my first post. I’m open to suggestions about what you want me to write about whether that may be my opinions on any topics, advice, or questions about myself. Thanks for reading!!